cards on the table, though. she was... something i figured would put some purpose in my life. i'd gathered so much information on her it seemed... right to get to know her, y'know? now i'm back at square one.
you know how fucking frustrating it is having every single thing you do blow up in your face? trying to fix it, getting somewhere for a moment and feeling good, just to have it fucking send you back all over again to where you started? knowing if you could just get someone else to run your life again, you wouldn't have to keep blaming yourself for everything being fucking horrible?
[There's a weirdly long pause between messages before he continues.]
this isn't your problem. you're gonna tell me you know exactly what it's like, right? and that i don't know what real suffering is. like the only thing you are is the reaper, like you didn't have a good life before you turned into that thing.
when the fuck are you going to realize i need your help, not your fucking criticism?
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cards on the table, though. she was... something i figured would put some purpose in my life. i'd gathered so much information on her it seemed... right to get to know her, y'know? now i'm back at square one.
you know how fucking frustrating it is having every single thing you do blow up in your face? trying to fix it, getting somewhere for a moment and feeling good, just to have it fucking send you back all over again to where you started? knowing if you could just get someone else to run your life again, you wouldn't have to keep blaming yourself for everything being fucking horrible?
[There's a weirdly long pause between messages before he continues.]
this isn't your problem. you're gonna tell me you know exactly what it's like, right? and that i don't know what real suffering is. like the only thing you are is the reaper, like you didn't have a good life before you turned into that thing.
when the fuck are you going to realize i need your help, not your fucking criticism?