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[hellshot]

Everyone's got a set life span.

Just depends on what ways you can cheat the system until Death really does come for you.

Everything dies.
Just learnt in my time being actually alive...
It matters what you do while you're still breathing.

Having regrets after shit's done with isn't worth it.

[smokedout]

i bet you'll think this is stupid.
but i'm going to kill myself if i turn 30.
i'm not interested in living longer than that; if i can't go out in a blaze of glory i'll just toss myself off the highest building i can find.

anyway. dinner. wanna do it in the residential building? i got no gas or heating in my place anyway.

[And Eichi's place is off-limits for anything but sitting there and moping.]

[glitterpants]

Companionship makes everyone happy... i wouldn't want you to end up alone.

[hellshot]

I do think it's stupid. It's a fucking waste and I could spend an hour telling you why.

Residential works. Most of my roommates avoid me, save for Sombra and Thor. Should be mostly empty during midday.

[hellshot]

I've been alone most of my life. It's not as bad as you might think.

Only if you focus on what it feels like, being alone, that's when it becomes a problem.

[smokedout]

go ahead then. tell me.
no one else has given me any good reason, but i figure you've made good points before on why i'm a fucking idiot.

[Also, calling his death a waste makes him feel nice.]

[hellshot]

You're a misguided guy who's barely reached middle age.
Your upbringing was bullshit.
But here you are.
On another fucking planet, far from the shit that raised you. Hazed you.

Throwing away your life is something I've always frowned upon.

Because no matter how bad shit gets, there's always an option to turn to that isn't walking both feet into the goddamn grave.
You just have to find it. And want it bad enough to keep yourself from selfishly taking your own life.

That's it. That's all I have to say.
Figure your ass out and warn me before you decide to show up.

[smokedout]

funny how you tell me that and also don't want me going after YOU as my reason to stay alive.

[...That gives him a thought, though.]

does it make you uncomfortable, having other people rely on you like that? needing you to give them a reason to keep living?

i'm coming over in a bit. couple minutes, tops.

[hellshot]

[It irritates him enough that he nearly doesn't want to answer. but they both know Reaper not answering this is the same as giving Dodger a fully thought out response.]

I've had enough men and women live for me and die for me.

I don't want to be responsible for anyone else.

[smokedout]

we can't help what our lot in life is. seems like you're some sort of sentinel for people around you... even when you don't want to be.

even when you shouldn't be.

see you soon, boss.

[And with that, he's ceasing communication until he gets there.]

[glitterpants]

What do you focus on other than being alone to make it not so bad..?
_{[ asking for a friend.. ]}

[hellshot]

[...Ha.]

Hobbies. Learning new skills, honing old ones.
Learning about this place we're stuck in.

You might not have realised it yet, but it's nearing a year since we've been taken from home.

[glitterpants]

Oh no.. it has been almost that long, hasn't it? I wonder what my family is thinking.. i wonder if they even miss me..

What have you learned so far? Oi, aren't you the last one from the Eluvio here with us?

[hellshot]

[He hadn't thought of that. But Karamatsu was right. He, Ichimatsu and Karamatsu were the last remnants of that place. There was noone left who had shared that horrible experience.]

What with how Sombra's forgotten how everything went, you're not wrong.

...It's only us three left who can even tell stories of such a place. If anyone would even choose to believe them.

Almost makes it easy to try to pretend they were just a bad dream.

[glitterpants]

I can't pretend it was a dream.
Too much happened to me for me to brush it off as a bad dream.
_{[ He almost died so much. He witnessed death of others. ]}

does that mean i'm growing up?

[hellshot]

[Wow. Alright, of all things he expects the delusional neet to say that... isn't really high on the list.]

If I affirm that to you, I wonder how quickly you'll let it go to your head.

That aside...

Life experiences, especially the bad ones, are what make you into the person you'll eventually be.
Just be sure that the kind of person you want to be in the future is one you'll be able to live with.

[glitterpants]

What if im not sure of the person i want to be in the future?
_{[ ABORT MISSION. THIS IS GETTING DEEP. ]}
What if.. i do not have the courage or confidence in the person i foresee myself being??

text; un: ny4n, may 22

[nyahilistic]

[He doesn't type eloquently or use a lot of punctuation often, but this is probably the first time Ichimatsu has sent a message with typos in it. He's typing too fast to notice.]

howmcuh do you knwo about this bulshti sickness

[hellshot]

[Has to be a pretty big emergency for Ichimatsu to text him in a way that's hard to read. The other might be lazy enough to forgo grammar and proper capitalization/punctuation in texts, but he can't remember the guy ever texting him this badly.]

Slow down. Type properly. I can understand what you're asking, but we won't get anywhere if you start getting incomprehensible.

What's happened.

[nyahilistic]

[He's pacing around somewhere in the house, chewing his fingernails and trying not to lose his mind-- it's just a weird sickness, he'll be fine. Of course this would happen only after they've started acting like actual brothers, of fucking course--]

[Reaper's reply startles him so much he nearly drops his phone and has to sink to sit to ward off a dizzy spell as he reads it. He takes a breath, holds it, and focuses on typing legibly.]

sorry
karamatsu wont wake up

[hellshot]

[That's better. He at least understands that people get unreasonable when upset, but that's his own problem, not being in the same boat. Something, something, psychopath, etc.

Either way, Ichimatsu's response does startle him a bit, even if he doesn't show it outwardly. The nanite problem the city had wasn't worrisome so far--but for someone not to wake up..]

What are his vitals. Does he have a pulse? Flash light in his eyes and tell me if his pupils dilate.

[nyahilistic]

he was still breathing but i freaked out and left the room
i dont know if we have a flash light but ill look for one

[nyahilistic]

found a flashlight
its really unnerving to open someones eyelids when theyre closed
his eyes didnt do anything though
what does that mean

[hellshot]

[Yeah, he doesn't like that response. There's a shift in his own nanites. Frustration, discomfort--maybe a mix of both.
He's not a doctor, and he barely understands his own nanomachines--let alone having to figure out foreign ones.
For the first time in years, he wishes there was one of those doctors around.

Ziegler, Moira. They'd have some fucking clue, at least.]

Means he's not unconscious. Call an ambulance, Get him to the hospital.
Don't know if you know first aid, but put him in the recovery position if you do. If he's comatose, he'll need help breathing.

I'm on my way over.

[nyahilistic]

[A good way to spook your cat, Reaper: tell him his brother is going to need help breathing. It doesn't help that he's sick, too.]

fuck
just tell me what the recvoery positn is and ill call
shoudlnt come over im sick too

[He forgot how to type again.]